This can say as the most serious lose in my life. I did totally wrongly and now I can say nothing. Ok, I can blame on unlucky. It kindly unfair however, it still totally my fault. Now I have to pay by time, by the feeling of lame with my mother, my friends and all people around me. There are someway lelf. However, all the ways are so tough and challenge a girl like me. I never dare to face this problem before in my life. Especially, my mom who passed away had sacrified lots for my study. I am so lame now. I am confuse at this moment. I have to wait for the result but the chance to make it diffirent is so low. I have already prepared for all the worst. However, the worst is that I can face my mother now. I disappointed even who has gone.
6 months is really a long time with me. I cannot say it will go by fast. However, after this event, I have to learn something.
The first thing of course is about my attitude. I have to put in all my efford to study. It cannot be like now anymore. I will cut all shopping, hanging out, any crazy things else to study. Studying, Reading books, Cooking at home, Chatting with my boyfriends and exercises.
I will write everything on my heart so I can aware of this lose. From now until the middle of the month. I have to stay at home when people around are going to school. I was so ready for this course but everything collapse now. I had no choice. I have not known what i am going to do next yet.
I have to find a full time job. I wish to find a good job like somekind of officer, admin or receptionist because it will consider as I had experience after. This still a way for me. I have never work before so I think this time will really challenge me.
I will start searching for a job today. If I can find a good job, I think people will accept and understand me more.
I hope god bless me.
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